DaRicanBoi [dot] com - Orlando Soto Jr.

[Tuesday, July, 04^th 2006 @ 3:00 am. ]
Lets start with some Homoerectus Information. Hmm where to begin. Oh. CJ, remember him. Well date went great. But I guess it only went great in my eyes. Because I have not heard from the dude since. He even deleted me of his friends list on myspace, haha, so funny. The next day after da date I called him a few times, a few texts, and just got ignored. Next day I tried again, ignored. I don’t know. I guess he was not feelin me, but I don’t get it why kiss me and make out with me, and leave me a voice mail talkin about “I hope to see you again” , if you wasn’t feelin me like that. I don’t get it. Maybe he found a local homo or something. Which is cool, he could have just told me. I would not have gotten mad at all. But ah well. Like I said “it is what it is“ was starting to get a real big crush on him, thinking the dude was actually mad different from da rest of the homos… Ha ha, kind of a Whole Greek Tragedy, I stay getting played or dissed. I am a loser citizen of America. *sighs*

But I did get to have another cool Homosexual Experience. Guess who hits me up from myspace. My ex Joey’s ex, Jay. It was kinda funny. He seem mad cool and stuff so we started talking. I was very curious to see how him and Joey relationship went. And comes to find out Joey played and cheated on him too. And after learning a lot of stuff Joey did to him, I related it to stuff Joey did to me, and yea Joey was a bull shit ass nigga. What’s sad I noticed a lot of the bull shit, but I aint pay it no mind, or I guess put too much trust into him when I shouldn’t. Another bad bf, and a complete waste of time. Another Whole Greek tragedy. But then he wanted to chill with me and I was down to meet him. And it was mad cute I took him to St. Mary’s by the Sea. Where the beach strip is at and it was dark and the stars were out. We walked the strip a little. And then he had a DVD TV in da car. So we watched a movie together, all cuddled up, as the sun rise was happening. I aint get home till like almost 7am, but it was mad cute. And “Opps we did it again the next day” [inside joke]. So that was real cool. He seem like cool peoples. So that’s was sup.

Got to chill with my home girl Gladia. I aint seen her in a while so it was cool chillin with her again. She got a new apartment and stuff so I went to go see it. She made us dinner and everything I was like “aaaaaawww, she a grown ass woman now” I am proud of her, she doing big thangs. So I chilled in her apt, with some of her peeps. One of the dudes was damn hilarious. Random ass speaking nigga. We played spades in shit. I saw her again today. We went to chill with Dalal and Sasha because it was Dalal b day. We went and ate at Red Lobster, and once again we was the loud ass table. Acting mad goofy, mad jokes, mad loud. Our waitress hated us. But it was fun. Happy B Day Dalal. Hopefully we chill more this summer.

So what else is going on in my life. I been practicing driving more. Trying to get my license soon, wish me luck on that [I need that shit]. Hopefully get my license at the end of the month. Hopefully get me a lil put put humpty car. So then hopefully I can commute to school and live at home and save some money. And also by having a car, I can possibly get a better J O B, that’s unless I get tooo lazy, yall know how I be, LAID THE FUCK BACK. *smiles* Hopefully things work out good for me. It's about that time in my life where something good needs to start happening.

Last but not least. I am so heated and hurt about a fall out I just went through just now. Jaiden. I really don’t get it. I really don’t get it at all. I got dissed by him a few times already. But yet I still welcome him back every time he talks to me again. I really hate to admit this, but I simply adore that dude. I can feel my eyes water up right now. And I so hate to admit when a nigga gets me sad and hurt. I don’t like to admit that I get emotionally weak,. And I hate to let others see or know that. We just got into an AIM disput. I keep telling him and letting him know that I really like him a lot. And he kept like just being blah about it. Its cool if he feels that way, so I told him I would just “fall back” from doing dat. For me just saying “fall back” we got into this lil bs convo. He made no sense, he told me that if I wanted him to like me that I had to be different from other niggas. I told him if he thought I was like other niggas then he really don’t know shit about me. He said he did not think that, but then again why say “I had to be different from other niggas”. Why tell me you like me and say “I love you” and then diss me time and time again. I told him I wanted to see him and chill with him and he tells me “I will think about it” makes no sense to me yo. He acts like he likes me so much sometimes then other times like he doesn’t even want to deal with me. So I called him out on it and he gets all hissy fit about it. Then we arguing about some other bs, and he is like to leave him alone and all this stuff to stop talkin to him and ... I don’t know yo. It really hurt me inside. I really like (fucking adore) this dude so much. But I don’t think he ready for a real nigga like me. He can’t handle hearing someone speak the truth about him if its something that he refuses to believe about himself. He likes to think he something he aint. I told him he got a lot of growing up to do. And that’s it. Another homo friend gone down the drain. *sighs* *sad face*

Blah. Time to call Farrakhan. He can always put a smile on my face.

Replies: 14 Comments

Posted by [ERNIE] @ 07.11.2006

I'M FEELING THE NEW LAYOUT ORLANDO. :) LOOKING CUTE COMO SIEMPRE.. YEAH I KNOW I DON'T REALLY KNOW YOU LOL BUT JUST LEAVING SOME RANDOM PROPS :) TAKE CARE.

Posted by [Farrakhan] @ 07.11.2006

This layout makes me wanna say, "ooooh, Daddy!"

Oooh, Daddy!

Haha...

Posted by [LESTATRI] @ 07.10.2006

I HEAR THAT! Y DO GAYS DO THAT? THEY MESS WITH UR HEAD TOO MUCH, I WENT ON 2 DATES THESE PAST FEW MONTHS WHERE WE MADE OUT AND NIGGAS TELLIN ME WE GONNA CHILL AND DO THIS AND DO THAT................................................................................................................................NO PHONE CALLS, NO NOTHING, I HATE GAYS!

STAY UP HOMO

Posted by [Blaze] @ 07.08.2006

Hey kitty! *.* Weird u messin wit ur ex ex but then it shows ya similar tastes haha.

Pfft the stupid asses. At some point u will have to say dam a relationship... im gonna get happy. And while ur doin that they will slither out to bug u. Pop ya colla tell em keep it moving. U will b ok suga. U BETTA b!

Im in NC *.* HOLLA! haha and behave!

Posted by [maaaaarco] @ 07.07.2006

heyy. first off LONG TIME NO TALK. how u been? anyways..onto this blog. i`m not sure if i`m understanding why you get (in your words) dissed so much. you seem like a cool guy...!? do u think it may be that...relationships aren`t for you (right now?)..i mean obviously you thinkin about the long term shit..hence the license..then car...or what not..so maybe that should take all of your attention. just have fuckbuddies. (lmao..j.p)..no but seriously...i believe that something good will happen to you soon...heck..i`ll even pray on it for u. anyways..i`ll def. have to come back..often to keep up with your stories...so i won`t be clueless about the people you speak of in em. anyways mucho love papo! :)>

Posted by [Kevin] @ 07.06.2006

hey bytch im backkkkk ..... w my site up again. woopp woopp. oh god the whole greek tragedy. ohh god you have bad luck w this shyt Lando for real. i def. notice that ; these gay dudes like drama i can see. i know u don`t like it me either i dispize dRAMA. itz disgusting. we are aLL LOSERZ OF DA DAMN UNITED STATES . ' literally. ohh god . hmmm... seems you had a great time lando. damn i ` would not wake up for nuthing ' just to see the sun rized for no one. NEVER. too early this bytch needs ' his beauty sleep literally. what DVD was it ? seems u had fun ' red lobster bytch u did leave me left overs ? cuz ` i sure do have the munchies right now lmao . i`ve been driving for 1 1/2 now. madd easy i`m waiting for october 8 so i can get my permit woop woop. =)

oh god lando i am 14 turning 15 ; i know how to drive you still learning ? ohh god. i should freaking teach you ;

u would cry if i drive i love SPEEED . anywhootz lando be good ; remember people come and go » no vale la pena

itz not worth to waste your time w people who are just ignorant & assholes. =) be good !

Posted by [chris] @ 07.05.2006

Listen Orlando just give it up. These Guys are full of it. I have been through with it all. This is why you need to guard your heart papi. I'm sick and tired of being hurt..I have been real and true to these dudes. I have been like you man. Hurt!!! Your a loving dude I see that. I feel so bad for you man. I want to knock these dudes in the face who hurt you.

Posted by [Bee] @ 07.05.2006

Hey...the site is hot, but don't be worryin' about some nigga.. you'll find another one. =D Take care <3

Posted by [Jay] @ 07.05.2006

dude don't be cryin ova sum dude...just take sum time and be by yourself and just enjoy life right now...just wait for this kid Jaiden to give you a call...but right now just b yourself. summer is here so just go out and have a good time... and good luk getting you license.

Jason

Posted by [joey] @ 07.05.2006

and orlando i don't want to hear that you are crying for some guy !. name jaiden or what ever. you told me that u don't cry for dudes hope u keep your word cause your better then that and you know that and that is a fact. j

Posted by [joey] @ 07.05.2006

wow orlando im so happy . i never new i went out with a guy name jay (that is so funny ha ha) not really. you really need to find something to do with your self(really get a life) . oh yeh i never play you but you can keep saying that i think its so funny (well now i do) and to bad it did work out with cj so sad. hope every thing works with jay like he say he my ex i never new that but ok . i dont wish anything bad on u. i just be the biger person this time. but thank u 4 talk about me j

Posted by [Jukie] @ 07.04.2006

You chilled w/ Joey's ex?

Posted by [jAy] @ 07.04.2006

hey punk!!! awww your friends look like kool peeps in da pix!! welll as for the other night had a really great time thnx chulo very sweet and yeah even though we were both victims oF a typical faggot were both still standing strong!!! lol Oops we did it again lol......well hope to talk to u later chulo...muaaahhhzzz

ps-had a REALLYY good time in the park the stars the night aaawww!!!!

Posted by [Farrakhan] @ 07.04.2006

Awww, Lando :( You know... I think you should slow down a bit. (Don't always go chasin' waterfalls, boy! haha) I mean, you are worth too much to just take what you can get. You don't need to be with someone to be happy. I realize that's hard to believe. Shit, I hardly believe it myself sometimes, but don't try to be with everyone you like. Sometimes it's good to just be friends. CJ & Jay... both seem like cool people but you just got out of a relationship and it's really soon to start dating. Nobody wants a rebound, and rebound relationships never last. As for Jaiden, you two seem to have a strong bond and from what I understand you care a lot about each other, but I can see why Jaiden would be weary about you. You talk to a lot of guys and it kind of cheapens your sincerity. From his perspective you JUST got out of a relationship (which, apparently kept you two from being together) and then almost jumped into two new ones only a couple weeks later, without blinking twice... Maybe Jaiden is just being gaurded because he doesn't wanna let you in, in the event that he'll get hurt. Not everyone is a resillient as you are, Lando. I can understand that he probably just doesn't wanna be another one of "those guys..." Even so, it's not fair for him to let it affect you, but we're all just human. We don't always do things as we should. I think you need to put your love life on hold and get back to just being you for a while. Maybe then you'll find out what you really want. And maybe Jaiden will really see that you are different and open up to you again. Until then, just focus on getting that "put put humpty car," lol.