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[Monday, December, 18^th 2006 @ 05:42 am. ]
The past two weeks, Um. I guess same o shit really for da most part. Je n’ai pas un vie. *pops collar*

X Mas Spending Once again I told myself I was not going to buy as much as I usually do. I told myself I was only going to get certain people. I told myself I was not gonna spend a lot of money because DUH I don’t have any. But…I did it again, I spent too much money, bought more then I wanted to. Uh I guess I cant help it, I like buying people shit for X Mas. I like surprising people with a gifts. Sucks I probably aint gonna get nothing in return but, I got use to it ya know. I usually just think small when it comes to me receiving a gift, this year, I aint even gonna plan to get nothing. Better that way I guess. But I am sure I will make a lot of smiles when people get my gifts, I always get nice gifts for people. I still actually might get a few more lil things for certain people. I hope I don’t, but I probably will. Lets just say I am broke, and my credit cards bills are MAD HIGH.IRS will be looking for my ass. But hey you live once, and it is for my family, so, hopefully I can bounce back from my dept soon. *crosses fingers*

Scholastic Performance So funny that I still talk about going to school. But yea. I still got those few damn classes to finish so I can get my bloody degree. I need to reregister for the spring and try and get the classes I need. Sucks because I have to wait till January 8th and ALL of the classes I need are already closed. I don’t know what its gonna happen as far as that goes. I don’t even know if they are going to give me my aid back. I really do no know what is going to happen with this school situation. I am hoping for the best. I was actually suppose to handle some of this stuff last week and go to SCSU “GO OWLS!” and finish some paper work. But haha, plans did not go through. I was gonna stay over my girl Rose house, since she live sin New Haven, and just go to SCSU in the morning. But home girl called me acting mad crazy and crying on the phone. I am like “what the blood happen” Rose found a mouse and didn’t know what to do with her self. She had to leave her apt and everything. It was so funny. I guess it’s a girl thing. So I didn’t stay over and didn’t go to SCSU. I do hope to go to SCSU this week. I better go.

Extracurricular Activates. Still go out and paint the town pink (yes I said pink *snaps*). Haha. Funny my broke ass stay “Ballin!” to some degree. *pats my own back* *pats my credit card* Haha. Last week was fun, @ Oracle. For some unknown reason when we get there, there was a private party in the back room for some Yale Frat people. It was like a whole bunch of str8 people in our lil gay spot. They were dressed up and everything. So I felt a strong need to get right in the middle of these Yale Heads, and dance around them and act as gay as I possibly could. Me and Chriisz was on the stage in the middle of them serving serious butch queen realness with a twist (gay terminology). Haha fun times. We danced with some of them. Laugh at a lot of them. I actually had mad fun with the str8 people there. Because when they left it got mad blah, and the DJ started playing some bull shit.

This Friday was actually more fun. They played better music. A lot of my peoples was there so that always makes it more fun. I bought a new digital camera so I got to take some cool pics. I was dancing my homo ass off. In the front room, oh my god, they was playing some Latin music. I was dancing like a hot fool. But it was so much fun. I love dancing and making a fool of myself. I love being me and having fun. I was mad I missed when they played dutty wine in da back. That’s my jam and I missed it. But they played “walk it out” and everyone was jamming. I love my gay peoples because we be wildin the fuck out. On the way home was mad fun. OMG we hit da red light at down town New Haven and had the Dutty Wine jamming loud, I put the car in park and we got out the car and stared wildin. We was doing the dutty wine in da street. Haha fun ass hell. (don’t try that at home). Then we kept driving right and there was this white car on da side of us and they was jamming to some reggae music. We both stopped at the red light and, again put the car in parked, went up to my girls car and started jamming outside of their car on the street again. Too much fun.

Homoerectus in sorta a full effect. Um not really much to report about the homo life. Not talkin to any homos. Not crushing on no one. And Yes very sad but true to say no damn cuddles. No cuddle action since the end of the summer really. Long time. But…its hasn’t been to bad on me. I guess I am getting better at not letting myself get too lonely or what not. I have had plenty of niggas trying to holla and stuff, but just not feeling it too much. I just don’t wanna talk to someone just because like I am bored or something. I want the next one to be someone I really want. Doubt it will come soon. Yall know I don’t like homos much. Sucks because I never had a boyfriend around the holidays. I never got to spoil no nigga for X Mas and stuff. And I always wanted to do that, but I guess I got to just deal with it. I was going to buy some shit for one of my homo boys but I decided not to. Ah well. I got to funny feeling I am going to slip soon and end up just talkin to someone new because I miss the affection. I hope I don’t, but if I know myself, I will end up just being a sucka for a cuddle. *sighs*

Oh I bought www.sodamncocky.com not sure what I will do with it but “so damn cocky” has come to be one of my catch phrases, yall know I got a lot of those. Trying to figure out what I wanna do with the site. Any Ideas?

Not much else to spit out. I am going to rest and watch some TV and hopefully fall asleep sooner then later. I really hope I have a cuddle dream. Yall have no idea how much I love having a cuddle dream. Its simple, innocent, sweet and so damn beautiful. *sighs*

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