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[Tuesday,August, 21^th 2007 @ 02:53 am. ]
People who visit my site, Hi. I so love being loved. Makes me feel all fuzzy, or maybe that’s all my body hair? Hmmmmmmmmmmm.

Unemployed and Educated. I been doing my online hustle. It is ok. But is not enough, I like to shop and stuff ya know, haha. So I am still looking. I feel out shit online all the time but always ends in blahness. My antisocial shy social anxiety aint helping much either. I don’t know what I will do. Gay Porn? Haha. No. (maybe) *winks* I am trying to get this Cable Vision job but I don’t know what is up with them. They slow. But we’ll see. I am thinking I should just start my own Web Design business but I kind of don’t wanna get stuck in that field. I don’t want to do web design forever it will get boring fast. Plus I will have to deal wit too many people and it will be ruff getting it to start. I don’t have time for all that. I can do it, not that hard. It is just not 100 percent reliable. So I don’t know. My life sucks. I am like confused. Obfuscated to the 5th power. *dies*

So mad. Today I got AIMs from my girl Nans. She was telling Billie from the job applied to was calling me. So I call her back. But no one picked up. So I waited an hour and called her back. She was like she was calling em a job that they needed someone quick to fill a spot. But they gave the spot away already. I fucking had my phone off. So I never got the call. Aint that a bitch. So mad I never have my phone off and when I do I miss out on a call for a good job. Now I have to wait like 3 more weeks to apply again. SO MAD. My life sucks. God hates me. *sad face*

Education Continued. I am thinking about getting my Masters. I want to get my masters just don’t know when or what to get my masters in. Or I was thinking getting a tech degree in web design and graphics something like that. I don’t know. I still did not get my degree in the mail. Damn SCSU (go owls!) is so damn slow.

Goya Clan. My family is crazy. I am the only normal one. They get mad when I say that haha. But it is true, Then I am like everyone’s Dr. Phil. I should get paid just being related to them. *sighs* but I love them, plus you get use to the goya smell after a while. *smiles* I been compelled to domestic engineer now (baby sit). Today my lil 3 year old niece (da devil) she went out side. Then it started raining. So I went to get her, she wouldn’t come in the house. So I went to get her. SHE RAN. She ran around the house. So now I am chasing her around the house. I get her and pull her by her pony tail and bring her into the house. The little bar wrench runs through the house to the front door and goes outside again. Ggrrrrr. Tha little girl is too much! You should see her pop her booty. Haha, so damn funny. Heaven is a little brat but she so cute. Sometimes when she walks by, I stick my leg out and BAM she falls. Hahahhaha. I love it *smiles*

Homo on Homo. Still single. I haven’t had a boyfriend since last May 06 (Joey, bacteria). I haven’t dated someone since May 07 (Matt, blah). *sighs* no cuddle buddy. C’est tres domage. *sad face* But I am ok. Not that serious. I really do miss cuddling but other then that I am good to go. *pops collar* I aint in no hurry to deal with another “I think he is different but turns into a regular hoe like all the others”. I just gotta be patient and wait and wait and then guess what? Wait some more. Grrr. Yea. Blah.
Some homo drama. Mr Matt decided he felt the need to call me and start some drama. He was mad because someone I confieded in, told him that I said some stuff about him. I guess he was mad because “I kissed and told” but it wasn’t even that serious. Plus, that nigga has said shit about me. I even heard him tell his friends stuff about me. He was telling his friends stuff about some personal stuff about me. But its ok for him to tell all my shit and I am suppose to just be quite? Hahaha, homos are so full of them selves. Shit he shouldn’t be mad. He needs to own up to his own actions. If you a hoe and it gets brought to your face, don’t blame someone else, BLAM YOUR SELF. If you don’t like people knowing the shit you do, then DON’T DO IT. So simple but for some reason gay people don’t have common sense. Ah well. Bye bye Matt. No time for that anymore. I can’t wait for the next person to ask me about him, I am really gonna say a lot. I am so tired of always having to be the bigger person and be the nice and respectful one. All these niggas stay talking shit about me and tell my business and its fine. No. No more. Fight fire with fire. Tired of being a sweet heart.

Funny I haven’t had a boyfriend in a long time but yet I always get into homo drama. It is just part of the life style I guess. Whole Greek Tragedy.

ps. Is it weird that I had a dream that I was fighting off killer zombie transsexuals? Haha they had make up on and everything and they was trying to kill me. I have the weird fucking dreams ever. *smiles*

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