My Archives: August 2007

[Tuesday,August, 21^th 2007 @ 02:53 am. ]

Was sup peoples of middle earth. What is rocking?

Jobless Hobo. So I guess there is nothing I can really do. I am going to be a street walker. Charge like $50 for a 30 minute cuddle session. Ya think I will make a lot of money? Hmmm. I don’t know. I guess I am going to wait till September 20th to see if I am going to get that job. Nothing else doesn’t seem to be popping off so I am going to wait for that. If something else presents itself then holla back even better. But at least I got plan A now.

My little online business (www.get-hosting.net) has been doing really good this summer. It has been paying the bills, so that’s cool. It needs to be a lot better. But I am happy with the help it has been providing me. I want to make some more websites. I aint do that in a few months. Making websites is fun, fun, fun. I should advertise in the paper for people looking to have a web site done. But my people skills suck. I am too shy, people scare me. They smell weird. Ha-ha. ”I am a dork citizen of earth.” My boy wants a website again well, he wants me to make him another layout for his website but he annoys me sometimes. So I don’t know if I will do it. Hmmmmmm?

Creativity in full effect. I need to get back into my writing. I really like to write. I am very creative and I got a lot of ideas but most of it is in my head. I need to start typing away. I am half way done with episode 2 of “Mutated” The story ideas I have for “Evil Pretty” is going to be hot! I been also working a lot more on a new story idea but this one won’t be a short story like the others. I am writing a new one called “Him and I” and this one will be a fiction novel. So far so good. I just wish I had more time to write. I been too busy helping everyone else that I don’t have time to sit and concentrate on writing. I wrote a few new poems. They came out hot. All this can be read at www.orlandosotojr.com let me know what ya think?

Familia de Goya. My family crazy. *smiles* so Sunday was eventful. I woke up to having to help my aunt fix the washing machine. She took out the tube from da pipe and that shit burst water all over the place. It was so funny. She got splashed in her face and was soaked. Yall know my gay ass backed up. I can’t get my hair wet now. But then I had to move a washing machine and screw tubes and all this shit. I aint got no muscles; I don’t know why I get ask to do manual labor. I fucked up my nails to. Shit. *smiles* Then after that I had to go to my cousin house to dye her hair. I had to go from masculine to feminine all in one day ha-ha.

Homo Battle. I get a horoscope text message everyday to my phone. I got one saying say hi to long lost friends or some shit like that. So I usually follow it sometimes. So I did that day and sent my old friends Farrakhan and Jeff a myspace message saying “Bottom” Ya know simple, but still funny. Just my way of saying Hi. Jeff said something simple back, but Farrakhan ha-ha he got too emotional. It was too funny. He was cursing me out. He said, “Be reminded of all the time and energy I wasted and a pathetic fuck like you. What was the point in you messaging me after all these months? Even more important... Why the fuck am I wasting even 5 more minutes on a sorry shit like you?”. Like it’s sad because he still thinks he is innocent. Like own up to your words own up to your own actions. He is the one that was annoying the hell out of me. He was the one that started with the attitude. He was the one who was talking shit out me to my friends behind my back (like duh my friends told me everything he said). He was the one that was telling my friends he was in love with me but then he sexually messed with my boy Jewls in Jewl’s house. How gross is that? Not to mention that Jewl’s has a history of STDs. How gross is that? But yet after all this time, I am still the one who is at fault? Like grow the fuck up little boy.

Case of the Exes. Must be a full moon because the Exes are all coming out to play. Well try to play. Aries my first boyfriend called me up. Weird. He always calls me though every 6 months – year. But I never save his number no point we not cool like that, we don’t talk so I always delete it. But I guess it was cool hearing from him. He misses me awww. Haha. They always miss me. He told me to go over but, nah I can’t. He will try and touch me, and GROSS. But I will do the phone friend thing for now. Hopefully it stays cool.

Ronny dude I was dating this past Feb, is still asking me if I would give him a chance. I am like hell no, not after all that BS ya did. And he said he changed. I hate it when homos swear that they changed so much. Yea right. He still dramatic and no no no. He is the one that sent Matt a message on myspace calling me a hoe. He told Matt that I cheated on him with Mr. Farrakhan. Like, I didn’t even give Farrakhan a hug. Ronny such a damn drama queen for lying and telling Matt I was a hoe. If I am such a hoe why he want me back? Homos always make themselves look so damn stupid.

Derek my BF from 2 years ago is calling me back now to. I always try and be cool with him but he always ends up being too dramatic and talking too much shit. This is probably the 6th or 7th time he comes around. So far is he good, but he can switch into Damien moon any second. He wants to chill with my next Sunday. It’s his b day. I am kind of skeptical but I think it will be fine. Two friends who happen to be exes can have a normal chill day right? Plus I want to beat his ass in a video game. Ha-ha. And I want to cuddle. I aint cuddle in a long ass time (since Matt and that was blahness in full effect).

Other Stuff I just got a text message saying that there might be some romance coming my way. EXCITED AM I!. I need me a new cuddle buddy. I was thinking maybe instead of trying to find a perfect boyfriend I just date close enough dudes. Like just date them and do all the cute romantic cuddle shit but don’t have sex or make it official. Maybe that will work better for now. Just date dudes I like and go on dates, cuddle all that good stuff, but just don’t have no official relationship or no sex. I am sure there will be drama still but hopefully not as much. And maybe through this process one will shine better then the rest and I will pick him. Maybe it will cool, but then again I am too shy in shit to actually put myself out there. Oh blah. I don’t know. Maybe just stay single. Hmmmm. What do you think?

Posted by drb @ 05:33 PM CST [Link]

[Tuesday,August, 21^th 2007 @ 02:53 am. ]
People who visit my site, Hi. I so love being loved. Makes me feel all fuzzy, or maybe that’s all my body hair? Hmmmmmmmmmmm.

Unemployed and Educated. I been doing my online hustle. It is ok. But is not enough, I like to shop and stuff ya know, haha. So I am still looking. I feel out shit online all the time but always ends in blahness. My antisocial shy social anxiety aint helping much either. I don’t know what I will do. Gay Porn? Haha. No. (maybe) *winks* I am trying to get this Cable Vision job but I don’t know what is up with them. They slow. But we’ll see. I am thinking I should just start my own Web Design business but I kind of don’t wanna get stuck in that field. I don’t want to do web design forever it will get boring fast. Plus I will have to deal wit too many people and it will be ruff getting it to start. I don’t have time for all that. I can do it, not that hard. It is just not 100 percent reliable. So I don’t know. My life sucks. I am like confused. Obfuscated to the 5th power. *dies*

So mad. Today I got AIMs from my girl Nans. She was telling Billie from the job applied to was calling me. So I call her back. But no one picked up. So I waited an hour and called her back. She was like she was calling em a job that they needed someone quick to fill a spot. But they gave the spot away already. I fucking had my phone off. So I never got the call. Aint that a bitch. So mad I never have my phone off and when I do I miss out on a call for a good job. Now I have to wait like 3 more weeks to apply again. SO MAD. My life sucks. God hates me. *sad face*

Education Continued. I am thinking about getting my Masters. I want to get my masters just don’t know when or what to get my masters in. Or I was thinking getting a tech degree in web design and graphics something like that. I don’t know. I still did not get my degree in the mail. Damn SCSU (go owls!) is so damn slow.

Goya Clan. My family is crazy. I am the only normal one. They get mad when I say that haha. But it is true, Then I am like everyone’s Dr. Phil. I should get paid just being related to them. *sighs* but I love them, plus you get use to the goya smell after a while. *smiles* I been compelled to domestic engineer now (baby sit). Today my lil 3 year old niece (da devil) she went out side. Then it started raining. So I went to get her, she wouldn’t come in the house. So I went to get her. SHE RAN. She ran around the house. So now I am chasing her around the house. I get her and pull her by her pony tail and bring her into the house. The little bar wrench runs through the house to the front door and goes outside again. Ggrrrrr. Tha little girl is too much! You should see her pop her booty. Haha, so damn funny. Heaven is a little brat but she so cute. Sometimes when she walks by, I stick my leg out and BAM she falls. Hahahhaha. I love it *smiles*

Homo on Homo. Still single. I haven’t had a boyfriend since last May 06 (Joey, bacteria). I haven’t dated someone since May 07 (Matt, blah). *sighs* no cuddle buddy. C’est tres domage. *sad face* But I am ok. Not that serious. I really do miss cuddling but other then that I am good to go. *pops collar* I aint in no hurry to deal with another “I think he is different but turns into a regular hoe like all the others”. I just gotta be patient and wait and wait and then guess what? Wait some more. Grrr. Yea. Blah.
Some homo drama. Mr Matt decided he felt the need to call me and start some drama. He was mad because someone I confieded in, told him that I said some stuff about him. I guess he was mad because “I kissed and told” but it wasn’t even that serious. Plus, that nigga has said shit about me. I even heard him tell his friends stuff about me. He was telling his friends stuff about some personal stuff about me. But its ok for him to tell all my shit and I am suppose to just be quite? Hahaha, homos are so full of them selves. Shit he shouldn’t be mad. He needs to own up to his own actions. If you a hoe and it gets brought to your face, don’t blame someone else, BLAM YOUR SELF. If you don’t like people knowing the shit you do, then DON’T DO IT. So simple but for some reason gay people don’t have common sense. Ah well. Bye bye Matt. No time for that anymore. I can’t wait for the next person to ask me about him, I am really gonna say a lot. I am so tired of always having to be the bigger person and be the nice and respectful one. All these niggas stay talking shit about me and tell my business and its fine. No. No more. Fight fire with fire. Tired of being a sweet heart.

Funny I haven’t had a boyfriend in a long time but yet I always get into homo drama. It is just part of the life style I guess. Whole Greek Tragedy.

ps. Is it weird that I had a dream that I was fighting off killer zombie transsexuals? Haha they had make up on and everything and they was trying to kill me. I have the weird fucking dreams ever. *smiles*

Posted by drb @ 03:00 AM CST [Link]

[Wednesday,August, 08^th 2007 @ 02:32 am. ]
Orlando Soto Jr, So Damn Cocky, *pops collar* in the house. Well in ON THE COMPUTER SCREEN.

Um last week was um I don’t know. Did the same o same o I guess, yall know I aint got no life. No tengo vida, je n’ai pas un vie! But anyways, This Weekend was cool. For the most part. My home girl Rose is departing from the 203 district so she wanted to two step at the club for her last weekend in town. I got the car because I had to go to my cousin house to do them a favor. I had to wait for a chair that a furniture store brought them. It was a Jamaican dude and some hill Billie white dude. They was weird they was play fighting with the furniture outside. They must have been real bored. But I got the car and went to Rose’s crib. I went a little early and we chilled and drank. We took shots and oh my god I was “overly tipsy” when we got to Asterisks @ Oracle. We were like mad early so we started playing pool. It was funny two tipsy homos playing pool. Rose got mad because she sucked and knocked all the balls into the whole. Boo at Rose.

But I had mad fun. Music was bumping. Me and her danced a lot. I was sweating my ass off. They even played my song “pop that pop dat jiggle that fat, don’t stop get it till your cloths get wet” I got on the little stage thingy and was jamming. “go me go me go me” So Damn Cocky Bitches.. There were several homos I do not particularly care for that was there again. Homos kept looking at me, and looking at me. They miss me. Awwww. Tragedy. Even one came up to me, I had no choice but to dust my shoulders off and keep it moving. Plus I was tipsy as all hell so I didn’t want to get into a “are you still mad at me” dialogue. But the night was fun. I am glad Rose had fun since she is going to Venus.

Animal Offspring. I lost my snake. I took her out and I forgot she was out and lost her. I could not find her any where. I tore my room apart three times. I ended up changing my whole room around because I moved the dressers to look for the snake. So then I was like fuck it and moved everything around. My room looks nicer now. So I went to sleep and no damn snake. I found her the next day show slithered out my room into the hallway and hid herself behind the X Mas stuff. Bad little snake I spanked her booty area when I found her and then gave her a kiss. *smiles* I hate Pet Co. I went there 4 times this weekend. 1. they took for ever and I got mad and left after 30 mins of waiting. 2. they were close. 3. they didn’t have no more mice or crickets (exactly what I was going to get.) 4. Today finally got everything. Damn suckas!

Homo on Homo contact. Or lack thereof. Um, nothing really to report. No one in my life right now. I have a few flirt friends is what I call it. Some are just going to be flirt friends and maybe one or two might become something else. I don’t know. I sometimes think I shouldn’t even think too much into. Just relax and do me. But I miss cuddling damn it! So… I don’t know. I would cuddle with just any homo but then again, I don’t want to cuddle with a hoe. Blahness in full effect. Funny some past homos that I was dating came around the block. Weird. They miss me, well duh I am Orlando Soto Jr. But it gets me mad. They realize they had something GREAT (me) AFTER the fact. Its like “act right the first time around fags!” Even Ronny called me. He hit me up on Yahoo acting like he didn’t know my screen name no more. Like everyone knows who is So Damn Cocky, I say it like 983570382947 times a day haha. Homo please. But it was cool. He misses he said, and asked me if I would take him back or something. I have to admit I do miss holding him (or do I just miss holding someone period). Hmmmm? *thinks* Also he didn’t really do nothing really bad, just was being dramatic, lying, bullshiting, playing games. Haha that is so damn sad that all those four things are “nothing really bad” since usually I deal with hoes and cheating and shit haha. Whole Greek Tragedy. But me and Ronny? A reunion homo special? Eh… no. Cant do it. History will repeat itself and I will have to smack a bitch haha.

Is there an ex I would take back? Aries, hell no. Gabby, hmmmm nah. Rochon, no. Nando, ill hell no. Derek, no. Joey, hell no. Damn that’s it lol. Is there a “dater” I would redate? Ronnie, hmmmm I dunno, No. Milo, ill bacteria. Mattie, no. Levar, oh no no. Pedro, no no. Damn I guess I can’t recycle any past homo. Ah well. Is there any homo I would have liked to try to date? Let me not even answer that.

Ha. I always think that homos are the worst. But my sister told me some breeder on breeder shit and I saw the light. Yall damn heteros are just as crazy. Maybe even crazier because yall create offspring. I think straight people just don’t talk about it as much as gay people do. Gay people love to gossip and talk shit about other people.

Creativity. I haven’t been writing as much as I would like to. But I am trying. I really want to get into writing more. I want to write more poems (go read High Hopes) and get some more short stories done. I haven’t had time. My family got me doing so much shit for them. I run all the errands and baby sit and cook in shit. I am like a damn Nanny or something. But hopefully I get some shit done. I would like to have 5 or 6 short stories done by January. We’ll see. I have a lot of great ideas. Just gotta get the out my brain and onto a word document.

Ok I am done. Miss me until next time. Cuddle buddy?

Posted by drb @ 02:33 AM CST [Link]

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